overtired

.90 away from being at a new LW.

i have acid reflux pretty bad right now

do i binge and purge, and make myself feel betterawfulworse?

do i continue fasting and go to sleep happy?

or do i restrict and snort some ativan and fall into a deep, deep sleep?

it's been maybe 20+ hours since i woke up. i never stay up this long, usually, but it feels pretty good.

i'm out of it.

note to self: solipsism. tell the psychiatrist about it.