intense.

I had a really intense day yesterday. Just bingeing and purging all day long and hating myself. Days, weeks, months of b/ping make me ridiculously uncomfortable. I much prefer restricting. Which I'm doing today, but... What do you know, I had 500 of my calories today all before noon. That also makes me ridiculously uncomfortable.

I'm trying to kick cutting, 'cause my boyfriend hates it and my mom will cry and everyone will be disappointed and I want to wear short sleeves again. But it's so tempting right now. Just a few little cuts? Can I have that, please?