mess.

just a biiiig fat mess.

been doing well lately. i'm just still really disgusting. you know? i bought a bunch of mini apples at 25 cents a piece, and they're only about 50 calories a pop. BEST INVESTMENT EVER? i think so. i ran out of laxatives, which is really upsetting. i kind of want to just exercise and restrict - you know, cut out puking and laxatives, but then again i don't. still huge, still disgusting. i have to work harder.

i'll allow myself to stretch my ears when i'm officially underweight, which is 120 lbs. for me.