o, lord, cleanse this earth.

friday: i was at my lowest weight since restricting, 137. i know it's still huge. had only 200 calories.

saturday: 137.40. what? crazy b/p session.

too scared to weigh sunday, had about 500 - 600 calories.

i don't know if my scale is just nuts, or if my body likes to make me freak the fuck out, but i don't like this. i don't like it oooooooone bit.

i'm at like, 300 calories today. i'm scared to weigh myself.