strength of the world.

Size: i don't wear dresses. wouldn't know.

Age: 18.

Highest Weight: 160 lbs.

Lowest Weight: 138 lbs...

Goal Weight: 99 lbs.

Favorite Diet Food?

salad, apples, broccoli.

Favorite Binge Food?

bagels with butter and sugar.

Favorite Exercise?

walking, running, sex.

Thinspo?

pretty hipster boys.

What Makes You Slip Up?

when the 'rents go grocery shopping and bring a bunch of good stuff in.

What Makes You Strong?

hunger pains, the dizziness, the light headedness.

When Did It Start?

last summer, i think.

Does Anyone Know?

sAm, my boyfriend, a few friends.

Do You Want Help?

yeah, help getting fucking thin.

How Many Calories Do You Consume A Day?

usually 500.

What Do You See When You Look In The Mirror?

too much. too girly. too weird.

Are You In A Relationship?

yes. i don't know what i'd do without him, honestly.

Is It For Attention?

maybe a part of it, as much as this shames me to admit. but most of it, no, it's all mine, it's all secret.

Are You The Fat Or Thin One Out Of Your Friends?

in between, i guess.

Are You Depressed?

yeah.

Ever Tried To Commit Suicide?

no.

Ever Been To A Psychologist?

yes, two.

Are You On Any Medication?

yep.

I AM -

[x] anorexic

[x] ednos

[ ] bulimic

[x] living off diet pills

[ ] hungry

[x] thirsty

[ ] drinking something

[ ] eating something

[ ] under 100lbs

[x] starving myself

[ ] participating in a fast

[ ] vegan

PEOPLE -

[ ] ask if I’m anorexic/bulimic

[x] call me fat

[x] say I’m skinny

[ ] say I’m ugly

[x] say I’m pretty

[ ] spread rumors about me

[ ] force me to eat

[ ] say I eat too much

[ ] wish I’d eat more

[x] don't know I'm anorexic/bulimic

[x] have tried to stop me

I WISH -

[x] I was thin

[x] I had a better body

[x] I didn't have to eat

[x] I could control myself

[x] I was under 110lbs

[x] I could avoid food

[x] I could hide what I am

[x] I wasn’t fat

[x] I was prettier

[ ] I could stop being ana/mia

[ ] I had a boy/girlfriend

[x] I could disappear

I LOVE -

[x] feeling hungry

[x] seeing a difference

[x] shaking

[x] being weak (but strong at the same time)

[x] losing weight

[x] being anorexic/bulimic

[ ] green tea

[x] diet pills

[x] being able to turn down food

[x] feeling good about myself

I HATE -

[x] when people stare

[x] being asked questions

[x] having to eat

[ ] being single

[x] wearing short skirts

[x] being fat

[x] looking ugly

[x] feeling this way

[ ] fat people

I NEED -

[x] more support

[x] people to stay out of my business

[x] more friends

[ ] someone to know

[x] less food

[x] more water

[x] a gym membership

[ ] to lose 50 lbs

[x] to lose 30 lbs

[x] to lose 10 lbs